I learned this year that it's ok to stand up for myself, as long as I do it right; and I did.
February brought on some significant changes at work. A new position, new schedule, more predictable paycheck, and a load of stress melted away. Some friendships got a little distant, but I'm sure they'll get back on track. At least, that is my hope.
March brought the end of a relationship and the beginning of truly finding myself again. Learning that I am all I need is rather empowering to say the least. A little lonely at times, but that's ok.
April was funny. Reconnected with someone only to have it blow up in my face. But I did something that I had never done before; I sent a man a rose. It was sweet, but alas, unappreciated. It's whatever.
I had a disappointing birthday in May, but I'm not going to detail everything. I got through it, however sad it made me.
The summer got crazy for a minute. Teenagers. The oldest decided that while at a friend's house, they were going to take a walk and when no one could find them at midnight, I got the scariest call a mother could ever get. The police finally found them around 2am and put the fear of juvenile detention into them both. My son and I had a very long talk that night and I feel and hope that it brought us closer. He even let me hug him! I never want to feel that fear again.
The rest of the summer was pretty uneventful. Took the kids to the festival and to the fair. Only a few years left before they will both be over 18 and ready to go out on their own. I only hope that I have and will continue to teach them well. I'm so proud of the young men they've become and can't wait to see what kind of future they plan out for themselves.
In September I applied for and got a new position at work. I was so excited to be learning something new! So much potential with this position. I even got a small raise.
October brought a lot of excitement! My first trip on a plane! Yes, 37 years old and only now realizing how beautiful it is to fly. My first business trip to California will be an experience I'll never forget. EVER. I learned so much and met some great people.
I went back in November. This time bringing back some souvenirs for the family. I put a smile on my son's face for his birthday. Which is saying something. Teenagers, right?
Also, in November, I signed back up for a dating site. Hilarity ensued. That's all I'm going to say about that. Except, I did make a new friend. Smart & funny. I could talk to him for hours and I have a few times. No worries, I'm not getting ahead of myself here. He's a friend. For now. Flirting is fun. :)
December is here and almost over. Christmas was a success. Love seeing my kids happy! Electronics will do it every time, y'all. :)
So, that was my year. In a nutshell. Love? Who has time for that anyway, right? The only plans I have for New Years is being with my sons, eating some pizza, and maybe having a glass or two of wine. It may not be exciting to most people, but these days, that's all I need to be happy. Quality time with my boys. Love will come when it's time. Until then, I'm not sweatin it.
New Years resolutions? Nope. Gonna take each day as it comes and just do my best to be the best I can be. I can say "Oh I'm going to lose weight", "I'm gonna quit smoking", "I'm gonna be more open to love"....blah blah blah...I say it every year. So let's just assume that I will WORK ON those goals...
However, I DO plan on being somewhat smaller by the time my birthday hits. Just sayin.
Here's to 2014. It had it's ups and downs, but it wasn't a bad year. I found myself and I'm not letting her go. She shall never be lost again.
.....and to 2015....be kind; but know this: I'm ready for whatever you decide to throw at me. Good, bad, ugly, beautiful; BRING IT.
I GOT THIS, Y'ALL.
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