The Enemy Within

Tonight, as I'm logging my food intake for the day, I am reminded of a poem I wrote in 2003 for a creative writing class I took in college. I felt the need to share it, because that was the year I started a transformation in my life. I started college that year, started losing weight, had a job, two children under 4 and I was still married to my first husband (who was barely home because of work) so I had my hands full! (lost about 40 pounds before gaining it back)

I'm posting this now, as I embark on yet another weight loss journey. I've lost 9 pounds March 24th. I wish it were faster, but they say it's best not to lose too much too fast or it'll come right back. I had a lot going on in my life when I wrote this poem, as I do now. So, it's fitting. I need to remember these words I wrote to myself all those years ago.

THE ENEMY WITHIN 6-03

Who is this person
staring back at me?
She's not the woman
I wanted to be.

Her eyes used to shine,
when beauty was fair.
She had a small frame
long, lovely red hair.

Her blue eyes are now framed
with dark raccoon-ish rings.
her heart, once full of song,
sadly, no longer sings.

Her young body, once thin,
'till her children were born
is now rebelling
her skin stretched and torn.

No matter how hard she fights,
this enemy won't go away.
She refuses to believe
she is supposed to look this way.

The enemy within taunts her,
distorts her vision without fail.
She cries when the number seems too high
whenever she steps onto the scale.

It has become her obsession,
this battle to become beautiful.
will she finally realize
inside, her beauty is plentiful?

@2003 CLMusic


Till next time, y'all <3