Hello, again, Internet.
Feeling the need for another post. I know I don't update much; but it's okay. I know not many people read this blog. I think I do this more for me, anyway. That's okay, too.
So, I've been single for over a month now and I haven't gone insane. :) There was a possibility with someone I dated briefly a few years ago, but that didn't pan out. Not my fault, not his fault; we're both victims of circumstances beyond our control. He's a great guy, with a big heart and sincerely hope he finds love and happiness in his life.
As for me, well, this one was a blow because I actually let myself open up and I had hope. It hurt when he told me he was confused and didn't know what he wanted, but it's okay.
I've survived 2 divorces, a 3 year on and off relationship that shattered my self esteem, and life as a single working mother. I'm strong. I'm independent. I work hard. The last 10 years, I've learned so much about life and about myself. I'm stronger than I ever thought possible and I can do anything I set my mind to. Confidence? Yes, I have that now. It took me a long time to love the person I am and have become.
True happiness comes from the inside. It's not something you chase. It's not something that you can physically obtain. It's a state of mind and it's a choice. You can choose to be happy and voila!
I choose to be happy. It doesn't mean that I don't get sad from time to time. Or lonely. Or upset. Or angry.
These are normal human emotions that every human on earth has to deal with from time to time. It's in our nature. We just can't let the negative emotions overrule our minds. You can't be happy if you let negativity take over. No matter what struggles we go through. No matter how many heartaches or dramatic changes in our lives, we have to hold on to as much positive energy as we can. Without it, we wither. We pull away from the possibility of true happiness.
I've been through a lot in my life. I've survived some of the deepest pain a human can endure. If I can do it, every one can do it. I honestly believe that we all have the power within us to overcome.
It's okay that I haven't found my "One". For now, "the one" is me and that's okay. I am all I need and when the time is right, love will find me. I refuse to look for it, however, I'll not close my eyes to it. When it's time, I will know.
Meanwhile, I will continue to fight the negativity that lingers. I'll hold on to every source of positive energy in my life.
.....and it will be enough.
Till next time, y'all <3
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