I didn't realize that I was still holding onto anger. At first, I thought I was angry at HER...the one my ex-husband cheated on me with and is now living with. She had felt that she had done nothing wrong; considering she was under the impression that the divorce was already underway when they "got together". She didn't think that SHE was the reason that he and I didn't work out whatever issues we had. Well, she learned otherwise. AND I learned that my anger was misplaced. Should I have been angry at him? YES. But my anger was more towards myself than anything. I felt stupid for not seeing or ignoring certain things in our marriage. Am I over him? I'd like to think so, but I know that deep down I will always have a special place for him in my heart. He's knows me better than anyone else on this planet and that's something that will never change.
But I've let it go and extended my friendship to her. Proving to myself that I AM the forgiving person I always thought I was. It's been a year and I've let go of it all. ALL OF IT. FINALLY. Will she and I become the best of friends? HIGHLY doubt it. But I don't hate her anymore....she's not my enemy and she never really was. It's about time I realized that.
I don't think I've ever felt so free.
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