Whoever you are......

......you don't know me yet, but you will. Someday we'll meet and you'll be curious.
You'll want to know more about me. You'll know that there is just something there, but you won't know what it is. You will have a sense of needing to know who am I; where I come from; where I've been; where I'm going.

As you learn more about me, you'll want to know more. Always more. Eventually, you'll realize that you think about me a little more than you expected to. You'll enjoy hearing about me, seeing me at random times, talking to me every chance you get. You'll want to be my friend.

You'll spend a lot of time thinking about what it is about me that you can't seem to shake. You'll think about calling or texting, but you'll be afraid that I'll turn you away, but you will anyway. Determined. You know that I've been hurt, but you see how strong I am and wonder where I found that strength after all I've been through. You'll wonder if I'll take the risk of getting hurt again....and if I'd trust  you enough not to hurt me.

You'll learn all the things that I care about. The things that I fear. You'll learn about my dreams, my hopes.

....and still, you will want to know more.

My favorite movies, Tv shows, books, music; what makes me laugh; what makes me cry and what makes me want to scream in frustration--you will learn it all and still want to know more.

You will look into my eyes and feel. You'll want to make me smile. You'll get addicted to my hugs. You will think I'm beautiful no matter what....and you will fall madly in love with me.

I'm a little crazy, a little stubborn, and a little reckless at times. I don't work out enough or take care of myself as well as I should. I eat junk. I smoke cigarettes. I'm on the computer a lot. I work all week and then spend the weekends with my kids watching movies and doing my nails....and you will love every second of it.


Most of all, you will accept me the way I am....you won't want me to change anything about myself that I wouldn't change on my own. You will love my kids, even if they decide they hate you. All because you just want to be with me and see me happy.

It'll be crazy. It'll be fun. Most of all, it'll be worth it. That's what it's all about right there.

So, I'll be here. Working on myself, working toward my goals and taking care of my kids. I'll keep myself busy and not sit and think about who you are or when I'll meet you. I'll post random blogs about this, that, and some other stuff.

Just know this:

Sometimes, I let myself think about you. I wonder who you are. I wonder where you live. I wonder where you work. I wonder if we've already met and don't even realize it. Sometimes I think that maybe you don't exist, but I have to believe that you are out there somewhere. Waiting for me....


.....meanwhile, I'll be here--looking forward to meeting my future.

I'm ready.